One more day left in this dumpster fire of a year. Just one more. I had such high hope for 2020. A new decade, a new guy, a fresh start. My outlook was so shiny and bright. Three days in and the tarnish of betrayal seriously put a damper on my new decade. How little did I know that was only the beginning. This has been a very hard year for most people. I’m lucky enough not to have had to worry about working, money or paying my bills. I’ve been working from home successfully since March 13th. I also can count my blessings that no one I’m close with has been sick. I live alone so the isolation and loneliness has been rough going. I appreciate every text or virtual happy hour or phone call I’ve received from friends checking in and staying in touch. These little actions helped me get by. Obviously the dating blog entries had to take a back seat this year. We will see what 2021 has in store there.

Were there some good times this year? Sure, there were some ok moments. Trying to make the best of this year was very tough regardless. I miss people. I’m not a huge fan of people in general but I would give anything to be in a crowded place again, with no apprehensions. A baseball game, a concert, a simple dinner out with friends; I long for the day when this is our reality once more. Unfortunately, I do feel like when we are able to be in groups again, it will be a long while before I’m totally comfortable, as I used to be.

I know moving into 2021 isn’t going to magically resolve the pandemic, the political climate or anything else 2020 threw at us. New Years is just an imaginary delineation and there truly is no difference from 12/31 to 1/1. That said, I do see a light at the end of this dark tunnel we have all been in the last 9+ months. I love seeing some of my friends already getting round one of the vaccine on social media ❤️ I know there will be an end and some semblance of normal will come.

I have made a resolution for 2021. I have resolved to put myself first. I don’t typically do this and it’s actually quite hard for me. I always put others before myself. What this looks like for me will be to work on setting healthy boundaries with people; family, romantic interests, work, etc., self care, my health and saying no if it’s not what I want. I always say this but I will also try very hard to write more. I just hope I have more inspiration soon.

Happy New Year to all! I wish everyone health and happiness for 2021 ❤️