I have dating PTSD.  No matter what is going on, there is a part of me that expects the guy I’m seeing to completely bail on me.  It has happened a number of times in the past so I cannot help it.  I internalize my crazy thoughts, for the most part.  What saves me are the best friend phone calls where I get things off my chest. (Thank you, friends ❤️)

If I have a date scheduled, in the back of my mind I think he will cancel. I know eventually there will be a time where someone will have a legitimate reason to bail and I have to keep reminding myself that it isn’t because he isn’t interested in me. Perhaps, he is a grown up and I have to remember that stuff comes up once in a while that might not be expected.  As long as there has been proper communication, I should really not worry.  This is so easier said than done.

I do have higher expectations for the guys I see now. If for some reason, things aren’t working out, I expect at least a conversation. I understand why people disappear but I hate it. I’d like everyone who is dating and reading this to try your very best to not “ghost” on anyone ever again. I will take this challenge as well. I will promise to have adult conversations, no matter how difficult they might be. People deserve it, especially if you’ve been naked together.

Here is the real kicker. I’ve never dated anyone, ever, where I questioned if I was good enough for them, until recently.  If he is the whole package, am I as well? I’ve come to the conclusion that, that thought process isn’t healthy. That I am good enough. That I am the whole package.  We all have areas we can improve upon but, for the most part, I’m awesome. I do have to remind myself that believing I’m awesome is not being conceited.  Everyone should think that, they themselves, are amazing!  If you don’t think this about yourself, how will someone else?  I think to myself, would you date you? I would.  I would date me. I’m, at times, hilarious, mostly intelligent, fairly pretty, very nice, and extremely caring. I always give more than I receive and it would be nice to date someone, someday, who gave as much back as I give. I deserve that. We all do. So I would date me.  Would you date yourself?